easier said than done

love and other drugs

127 Hours

Fair Game 11/19/10

Pretty good.  I like Naomi Watts and of course love Sean Penn.

The thing I always realize when watching a 'historical' fiction, or something based on reality - is 'Where was I when this was going on?'...of course I (vaguely) remember the name Valerie Plame, but don't really remember Joe Wilson or the events surrounding the outing-but I should, and really it's shameful that I wasn't paying enough attention.  It started with the bullshit non-existent WMD that the war was based on.
What this movie really does serve up is a reminder of what a bunch of crooks there are up at the top - Karl Rove, Scooter Libby, and countless others, including GWB...
asking the question all over again - who knew what and when did they know it....twisting the truth or just making up stuff to suit the needs of the day. 
Now that GWB is out trying to sell his book, which I think is another way to shape his 'legacy' - selective memory and reinventing history, I am glad of the timing of this movie. 
He was on Leno the other night - NOT that I ever watch that show, but as I was flipping channels, I guess I was really flipping him the bird HAHA

Hereafter

The Full Beaver Moon

From the Farmers' Almanac:

Full Beaver Moon – November This was the time to set beaver traps before the swamps froze, to ensure a supply of warm winter furs. Another interpretation suggests that the name Full Beaver Moon comes from the fact that the beavers are now actively preparing for winter. It is sometimes also referred to as the Frosty Moon.

Here's the view even though it isn't technically full till after midnight. 

Sufficiently Chastised

Cupid Chastised 1613 Bartolomeo Manfredi (1582-1622)

Trying to figure out exactly what J was saying to me last night.  Has everything up to this point just been grooming?  I have wondered that for awhile now, but then he sends a text like "it's also nice being an early adopter myself", and I totally get drawn back in.

I feel like my cheeks have been burning since the conversation. 
Yes, of course I know you have a Hawaiian Girlfriend, I've heard she's lovely and you are faithful to her. 
You have also said something like "I have to do something about that",
about not knowing if she sees other people,
about having had 5 girlfriends (?),
and about leaving your 'current' person behind in Austin.

and the email you sent :Thank you for asking me last night how my day was. It's been a long time since anybody asked that, or seemed like they cared. It was nice.

Fuck you.

I am not trying to marry you or be your 'girlfriend'...just trying to find a place where I can be happy 'in the bubble' ( the new bubble paradigm HAHA) and if we're only on that level, then maybe I can overlook your shitty comments like 'tight and juicy', cause I wouldn't expect you to say that about a person you respected.

 Now I feel stupid.  I must not have that many folds in my brain.

Or have I completely misinterpreted what was said?  When you said you felt exposed,  are you paranoid about the Hawaiian Girlfriend searching my blog and finding you out?   All this ambiguity.  Who can stand it?

Call me if you ever get here.  We can see what's up then.