What the hell am I thinking?

This beautiful bird of paradise is brought to us today courtesy of the Hawaiian Girlfriend.  It is gorgeous, certainly. Who could resist it? 

"We 'll talk about it when the time is appropriate.  I don't like to leave things unsettled." 

Ok so really, what the hell does that mean. 

Here are 3 great truths as I see them. 

1. J and his furniture are moving here (shout out to the chair!!) 

2. We are going to spend a lot of mutually enjoyable time together when he gets here. 

3. I am not stressing over any HG, even if I need medication to help me.  (But I am, aren't I)

Am I nuts?  I don't know. 

J did something to me - woke me up like Stella...whatever is going to happen will happen and I don't have to know it right now. 

However, I do have SOME self-respect- I am NOT going to Austin.  Hmmm, that feels like I just shot myself in the foot...