A lie of omission is a lie nonetheless

So the years have gone by, push/pull etc...some really good times, a whole lot of misery - always with the feeling that the other shoe was about to drop...

When you told me "I have to do this my own way" WAY back before you moved here, the reason you "felt exposed" was because in addition to your lovely Hawaiian girlfriend, you neglected to mention your WIFE in Portland...the one you would be so upset to be divorced from...

I know, "it was awkward"...

I'm just trying to decide if I think you are more WEASLEY, because you are incapable of being honest, or more MEASLEY, because you are incapable of any real emotion.  At this point, it's a toss-up.

I'm still angry

I keep thinking that I've let it go, but then something pops up in my brain (DAMN YOU SMART GIRL)
such as:

"it didn't end well" 

what the fuck were you thinking when you said that?  'cause I'm wondering how you think it ever even started?

you are selfish and all about yourself.

and yes, this blog is going live again, liar.

someday.

The end of Austin One?

Well, this blog has certainly gone by the wayside since J - and now maybe he's gone.

In a nutshell:

He said 'I am sorry if you had expectations'.

He said 'I am not emotionally available to you'.

He said 'I am a committment phobe'.

I may have heard 'I just don't love you yet'.

It wasn't that he wasn't honest.  It was that he wasn't completely honest...and I of course, never asked anything...about anything.

The Relocation of AustinOne (finally)

J arrived today. FINALLY! It has been such a long time coming, and such ups and downs, and the communication breakdowns...not having talked about anything except the move in ages.

Picked him up at the airport. Drove to his apt and looked around - will be nice - comfortable.  Then went over to Dino BBQ - a 2 hour wait - walked over to River Street - went to Jose Malones.  Margarita, butternut squash and apple bisque, and beet salad. So yum.

Went to the apt where he is staying (his out of town friend.)  watched a PBS show on the tsunami, the science behind how it happens.  It was so normal :)  sitting on the couch cozy up.

very happy to see him.

Winter Break spent at Work

It's just crazy how busy it is.  Sunday evening 4 hours, monday morning 4 hours, Tuesday double, wednesday 4 hours, Thursday double Friday 12, Saturday 12.

If I live, I'll be happy on Payday.

Weekend in Austin

AE at Drew's house 1/16/11