Sufficiently Chastised

Cupid Chastised 1613 Bartolomeo Manfredi (1582-1622)

Trying to figure out exactly what J was saying to me last night.  Has everything up to this point just been grooming?  I have wondered that for awhile now, but then he sends a text like "it's also nice being an early adopter myself", and I totally get drawn back in.

I feel like my cheeks have been burning since the conversation. 
Yes, of course I know you have a Hawaiian Girlfriend, I've heard she's lovely and you are faithful to her. 
You have also said something like "I have to do something about that",
about not knowing if she sees other people,
about having had 5 girlfriends (?),
and about leaving your 'current' person behind in Austin.

and the email you sent :Thank you for asking me last night how my day was. It's been a long time since anybody asked that, or seemed like they cared. It was nice.

Fuck you.

I am not trying to marry you or be your 'girlfriend'...just trying to find a place where I can be happy 'in the bubble' ( the new bubble paradigm HAHA) and if we're only on that level, then maybe I can overlook your shitty comments like 'tight and juicy', cause I wouldn't expect you to say that about a person you respected.

 Now I feel stupid.  I must not have that many folds in my brain.

Or have I completely misinterpreted what was said?  When you said you felt exposed,  are you paranoid about the Hawaiian Girlfriend searching my blog and finding you out?   All this ambiguity.  Who can stand it?

Call me if you ever get here.  We can see what's up then.